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Dec. 12th, 2009

I really do have a wonderful husband.
He's such an amazing father.

Turns out, I was right.

Vann Ambrose Suggs made a suprise enterance into this world on Monday Nov. 16, 2oo9 at 7:41 a.m.
He weighted 7 pds & 8 oz and was 20 inches long.
Quite a big boy for a month early!!
He's got a headful of dark hair and is amazingly cute.

(The tux was what Nicko wore home when he was born. :] )
So, as of Thursday Nov. 12, I was 1cm dialated and 25% thinned. I know we've still got a ways to go, but I was a little suprised. Especially since my dr said before he checked, that most women don't start thinning/dialating until a little closer. I was IMMEDIATLY freaked out because when he was checking he cocked his head to the side, looked at the nurse and said "hmm. Guess not".
Trouble in paradise was all I could think.

haha. So, now it's just a waiting game. Everyone is taking bets on when Vann will arrive. I'm thinking he'll be here LONG before December. Nicko's giving it a week and a half at most. Everyone else is Nov 27th or into December.. eh, I don't know.
We're all on Vann's time now.

spread 'em lovely.

yesterday was a great day. I love the times that Nicko and I can sit at home/lay around, do absolutly nothing and have a wonderful time. :]
I know that days like that are coming to a close for us- and I'm sad that there was a time when I took them for granted or got aggervated when he didn't want to go out instead. It was wonderful yesterday.

I'm so happy that we are finally getting to find out the sex of our baby tomorrow. it feels like this has taken years to get to. Everyone is placing bets/telling me what they think it's gonna be. I guess it's a little weird that I have no intitution about it.. I would be happy with either, but I'm REALLY kind of pushing for a girl. I know- not what I was wanting when I wasn't pregnant/first started out in pregnancy but... I think a little girl would be fun. Then again, a boy would too. With whatever the outcome, I would be more than happy.
I haven't given up hope on the possibilty of twins though. haha. :]

It's going to be a madhouse tomorrow in the ultrasound room though. Nicko and I of course will be there- as well as his mom, my mom, his two sisters and one brother, possibly my brother and maybe even Nicko's cousin. I doubt his dad is getting to go though. Still, it's a tiny room and, including the technician, that's 10 people crammed in there. Guess we'll just have to see how it goes. I'm sure more people will want to come.. It might come down to having to draw straws...

I guess that this is really all there is to say. I'm so excited/nervous/happy/scared.. ah! Ultrasound photos tomorrow- assuming our little one cooperates & shows us the turtle or hamburger. hahha.

here's the thing.

I've been off work since Friday. It has been pretty fantastic (other than my emotional breakdown Thurs. evening & all day Friday.) I've gone to bed at a reasonable time and was able to sleep well into the 10 o'clock hour. Then, Sunday night comes and WHAM. It was 1030 when I finally laid down and from 230 on I was up at like 20 minute intervals. It also doesn't help that my bladder is going haywire.

I need to quit work.
"no love, no glory. There's no hero in her scar."
I love Damien Rice. :] His music just makes me feel.. idk. awesome.
Plus, you can hear his sexy accent while he's singing. It's great. ;]

ah, I'm so ready to find out what I am having. This waiting around crap, sucks. Maybe I'm just too impaitient? Oh well.

Night before last Nicko played guitar for my belly & was singing. It was the cutest thing in the entire world. There are times that he just completly blows me away.
It's fantastic.

Jun. 29th, 2009

I am so ready to find out what this baby is. Does my doctor not think that I need to know?? geez. It's almost to the point of torture.

baby girl sets... just incase.

I'm on a mission to find cute crib-sets for girls since Nicko wasn't fond of any of the ones I've found so far. Here's what I've got..

Leapfrog Baby Bedding (lullabyebaby.com) $384.62

Just Buggy (lullabyebaby.com) $292.31

Scribbles $292.31 (lullabyebaby.com)

Blossom garden (koolroomz.net) $352.00

Carnival Bloom (koolroomz.net) $490.00

(this is why I'm hoping for twins! One boy/one girl)
$189.00 (babybeddingtown.com)

$189.99 (babybeddingtown.com)

Pomegranate Bedding $180.95 (babybeddingtown.com)

Mulberry $191.45 (babybeddingtown.com)

(babybeddingtown) This is the car seat I want. Doesn't go on sale until Nov. $309.00

4 years wins the $$$

somebody tell me why I busted my ass for 1.5 years on a CDA (that was MANDATORY in order to keep my job) that only tops my pay off at $10 p/h.
BUT, someone who has a degree in psychology (or any other random ass degree) is eligable to recieve $12 p/h base pay.

I'm so fucking pissed off about this. I can go to school for 4 more years and recieve $2 more than what I'm already making, with a degree that has SQUAT to do with my job. It doesn't make sense to me.
I don't want to do more school. I don't want a degree in some random ass field, and I'm not doing early education because, I don't work in a public school- nor do I ever want to. I'm not going to wear myself thin just for a daycare job.

I really feel that I've done my part by taking this first fucking class, just to be swept under the rug, yet again, by people who have no fucking clue what is going on.

I don't know why everyone can't come to the agreement that yes, education does matter, but so do responsibilities. As lead teacher, with more work/responsibility/etc I should recieve pay that is higher than the people with less work. If I was in another position, I would still agree with that. It's fair and that's how things should work. The more you have on your plate, the better you should be treated.

I'm just super annoyed by all of this.