Vann Ambrose Suggs made a suprise enterance into this world on Monday Nov. 16, 2oo9 at 7:41 a.m.
He weighted 7 pds & 8 oz and was 20 inches long.
Quite a big boy for a month early!!
He's got a headful of dark hair and is amazingly cute.

(The tux was what Nicko wore home when he was born. :] )

So, as of Thursday Nov. 12, I was 1cm dialated and 25% thinned. I know we've still got a ways to go, but I was a little suprised. Especially since my dr said before he checked, that most women don't start thinning/dialating until a little closer. I was IMMEDIATLY freaked out because when he was checking he cocked his head to the side, looked at the nurse and said "hmm. Guess not".
Trouble in paradise was all I could think.

haha. So, now it's just a waiting game. Everyone is taking bets on when Vann will arrive. I'm thinking he'll be here LONG before December. Nicko's giving it a week and a half at most. Everyone else is Nov 27th or into December.. eh, I don't know.
We're all on Vann's time now.

yesterday was a great day. I love the times that Nicko and I can sit at home/lay around, do absolutly nothing and have a wonderful time. :]
I know that days like that are coming to a close for us- and I'm sad that there was a time when I took them for granted or got aggervated when he didn't want to go out instead. It was wonderful yesterday.

I'm so happy that we are finally getting to find out the sex of our baby tomorrow. it feels like this has taken years to get to. Everyone is placing bets/telling me what they think it's gonna be. I guess it's a little weird that I have no intitution about it.. I would be happy with either, but I'm REALLY kind of pushing for a girl. I know- not what I was wanting when I wasn't pregnant/first started out in pregnancy but... I think a little girl would be fun. Then again, a boy would too. With whatever the outcome, I would be more than happy.
I haven't given up hope on the possibilty of twins though. haha. :]

It's going to be a madhouse tomorrow in the ultrasound room though. Nicko and I of course will be there- as well as his mom, my mom, his two sisters and one brother, possibly my brother and maybe even Nicko's cousin. I doubt his dad is getting to go though. Still, it's a tiny room and, including the technician, that's 10 people crammed in there. Guess we'll just have to see how it goes. I'm sure more people will want to come.. It might come down to having to draw straws...

I guess that this is really all there is to say. I'm so excited/nervous/happy/scared.. ah! Ultrasound photos tomorrow- assuming our little one cooperates & shows us the turtle or hamburger. hahha.

I've been off work since Friday. It has been pretty fantastic (other than my emotional breakdown Thurs. evening & all day Friday.) I've gone to bed at a reasonable time and was able to sleep well into the 10 o'clock hour. Then, Sunday night comes and WHAM. It was 1030 when I finally laid down and from 230 on I was up at like 20 minute intervals. It also doesn't help that my bladder is going haywire.

I need to quit work.

"no love, no glory. There's no hero in her scar."
I love Damien Rice. :] His music just makes me feel.. idk. awesome.
Plus, you can hear his sexy accent while he's singing. It's great. ;]

ah, I'm so ready to find out what I am having. This waiting around crap, sucks. Maybe I'm just too impaitient? Oh well.

Night before last Nicko played guitar for my belly & was singing. It was the cutest thing in the entire world. There are times that he just completly blows me away.
It's fantastic.

I am so ready to find out what this baby is. Does my doctor not think that I need to know?? geez. It's almost to the point of torture.

I'm on a mission to find cute crib-sets for girls since Nicko wasn't fond of any of the ones I've found so far. Here's what I've got..



Leapfrog Baby Bedding (lullabyebaby.com) $384.62


Just Buggy (lullabyebaby.com) $292.31


Scribbles $292.31 (lullabyebaby.com)



Blossom garden (koolroomz.net) $352.00


Carnival Bloom (koolroomz.net) $490.00


(this is why I'm hoping for twins! One boy/one girl)
$189.00 (babybeddingtown.com)


$189.99 (babybeddingtown.com)


Pomegranate Bedding $180.95 (babybeddingtown.com)


Mulberry $191.45 (babybeddingtown.com)


(babybeddingtown) This is the car seat I want. Doesn't go on sale until Nov. $309.00

somebody tell me why I busted my ass for 1.5 years on a CDA (that was MANDATORY in order to keep my job) that only tops my pay off at $10 p/h.
BUT, someone who has a degree in psychology (or any other random ass degree) is eligable to recieve $12 p/h base pay.

I'm so fucking pissed off about this. I can go to school for 4 more years and recieve $2 more than what I'm already making, with a degree that has SQUAT to do with my job. It doesn't make sense to me.
I don't want to do more school. I don't want a degree in some random ass field, and I'm not doing early education because, I don't work in a public school- nor do I ever want to. I'm not going to wear myself thin just for a daycare job.

I really feel that I've done my part by taking this first fucking class, just to be swept under the rug, yet again, by people who have no fucking clue what is going on.

I don't know why everyone can't come to the agreement that yes, education does matter, but so do responsibilities. As lead teacher, with more work/responsibility/etc I should recieve pay that is higher than the people with less work. If I was in another position, I would still agree with that. It's fair and that's how things should work. The more you have on your plate, the better you should be treated.

I'm just super annoyed by all of this.

This weekend, Nicko and I went to Dothan to spend some time with my dear friend, CJ & her baby. What is normally a three-hour trip turned into a 17 hour one.
About an hour and a half in, the truck started over-heating. We pulled over and let it cool down. Nicko started messing with things and somehow the radiator cap got lost. We searched for well over a hour and even asked other people to come and help us find it.. with no luck. After close to two hours, we decided to try to drive down the road to see if we could find any kind of store open that might offer what we needed. (This was about 9-10pm.) We leave the gas station, cross over Hwy.231 and I hear the damn thing fall out. Nicko, gets out, runs across the hwy and retrieves the radiator cap. Yay. We thought all was well... We had to pull over several more times, for atleast 30 minute intervals to let the truck cool down or whatever. Then, the problem with the damn thing bucking & the lights going dim starts happening.... We finally made it to Troy and decided to stay in a hotel, because any further and we would have been screwed. There's no cell reception, no gas stations... just creepy, dark woods..and who knows what else.
So, by the time we made it there Saturday morning, it had taken about 17 hours from when we left the day before.
Sunday when we left we had just as many problems.We got about 50 miles from home and the truck finally died. It took us about 7.5 hours to make it back, but luckily his Pawpaw was able to come and rescue us. It made for good times..and both of us were able to keep our tempers. I only had one breakdown Friday night, but that was because I was talking to some MORON on the phone about our location & what to do.. I don't even want to get into that because it's quite annoying.

So, yesterday I broke out into some kind of rash. It's only on my neck, chin & by my left eye. It's not swollen, not fever-inducing or itchy. I don't know what it is to be honest. I called my OB thinking it might affect the baby, and they said not to worry. I have to try to make an appointment with a dermatoligist now. Great. The benadryl I've been taking hasn't even affected it in the least-- and I'm quite scary looking. anyways.

We also went and looked at buying a new car yesterday. We instantly found one that we love. It's a 2oo5 Malibu Max (white.) We wanted a small SUV, but we both really like this. It's a family vechicle (yeah, I know.) but pretty cool. It's got 2 sunroofs, a DVD player for the backseat, seat warmers, the automatic ignition, steering wheel controls (yes!) and lots of room. I'm not gonna lie, I'm pretty pumped. It's only $11,000. We also looked at the buick rendevouz, which was a grand more, but he didn't really care for it. I did. But, either way I'll be happy.

Here's what it looks like.. it's just the wrong color. :]


and that's what's going on with us. Nothing too exciting happening, as usual.

I haven't been able to sleep like a normal person all weekend. 4 days off and i'm wide awake, like my body has been pumped with speed, at 1 am. yesterday I was up from 1 am until 1030pm last night and I could have I stayed up longer. I was just bored and finally forced myself to sleep because I had to get up at 4am.

what the hell is wrong with me?
I've also thrown up just about everyday too.
We're past gagging & nausea, this is straight up puke.

ugh.
I want to move past this!

I also watched the trailer for "new moon" this morning and I was greatly disappointed. Maybe the movie will actually suprise me, but I couldn't forsee that happening with what I watched. I need to quit watching movies or reading.

either that, or I need to have a talk with Hollywood....

"I always thought I was a fool for no one, but oh baby, I'm a fool for you."

This week is going to crawl by and that really disappoints me. I woke up today thinking it was already wednesday. crap. :[

by the way, I might have the best husband known to man. I woke up sunday morning (our one year) with a dozen roses laying beside me. I'm not going to lie.
I melted.

god, I don't want to be at work.
some one save me.


in other news, my nausea has (temporarily) subsided. :]
yay for that.

this Sunday I will be married for 1 year.
wow.

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Yeah, I know it's a lot. I just had to get a lot of different options. You know how girls are. :]

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thnx.

I know that my hormones are peaking & crashing all the time, but geez.
I haven't hit the "crying" part of it yet.. I'm just ANGRY all the time.

Last Friday when we are at the Crawfish Boil I was attempting to get in fights with people. I was screaming at everyone because they kept pushing/shoving and stepping on me and I had had enough. I really embarassed Nicko, but I'm not going to let people treat me like crap. HATE IT. Even at work, I'm rude with some of my parents (even though some of them deserve it.) and other teachers.
I INSTANTLY, over nothing, can feel the anger rise in me. (there's nothing slow about it either.) My blood beings to boil and I just can feel myself on the brink of explosion.

I hope that this passes, but I sure don't want to start crying over any/everything either.
That's embarassing & not what I want to deal with.

i
am
so
bored.

The Toxic Avenger


Wicked


The Little Mermaid

Shrek: The Musical


Rock Of Ages

Chicago

Waiting For Godot
(only because I love Nathan Lane)

geez I need like 3 days off work so I can just sleep.
That's not asking much.